I am not even sure if my H ever was having a MLC now. A lot has happened since I last posted. At first I thought he was making great strides to "right" himself and get better. He reached out to make sure I knew he was taking some action.
Well, tonight the bottom fell out of any hope I had left. He has not yet come to get puppy but now he wants to, and he would like it to be permanent. Meaning, no more seeing one another. He told me he is in a relationship with a woman he met on the internet, and has been with her for 2 months now. She lives close by him. He told me he went away last week on his own to think very hard about what he would do. He wants to move on. He said he's been alone now for a year, and he is ready to move on with his life. He told me to do the same with mine. He doesn't feel the same about me anymore, and he said he didn't love me anymore when he left 3 years ago. He apologized for not being man enough to tell me the truth when he left in the first place; he just thought I'd get mad enough to leave him. He's telling his new gf that his working so much caused problems for us, and that he messed everything up between us. That's all he's saying. To me, it looks like people will think I left him not the other way around. That hurts me deeply. He no longer thinks it is appropriate for him to come up to see me; he asked me to meet him halfway when he picks up puppy. He still seems so angry about his financial situation. However, he told me that he will no longer condemn himself for what happened, and it's time to put it behind him and move on. I guess that is why he is dating someone new. He feels we should divorce. I do believe he plans to move towards that. It could be that the new gf is pushing the issue; I don't know.
I don't feel very well tonight. I thought this had stopped hurting a long time ago. Guess not.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
