Patrick, I understand the challenge with faith. Something that has helped me (and I am still challenged) is that I go to a weekly men's bible study. The men are all firm in their belief that family is the greatest ministry that we are called to attend to. Then to help others.
Mine is every Wed which is great because I feel I need it in the middle of the week to help me stay firm in my resolve between Sundays when I go to church.
It also helps to learn more about what it means since church is critically important but this gives you a chance to learn more about your faith.
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God
