my friend, I will not get tired telling you this : YOU DID THE RIGHT THING!! HE LEFT YOU WITH NO OTHER OPTION. You have to try fighting for your family in an other way, what you were doing so far brought you here... (I mean being forgiving etc etc with no boundaries). He needs to start respecting you and so far he hasn't. Because you did not respect yourself. Hang on to what you really want from him, not some part of him...