Hanging in there....

[Sugar and Spice]

He probably isn't feeling loved, wanted or pursued by anyone but the OW at this time, because I can not longer put myself in that position. I have told him that I love him and that I believe we can work this out, but we can't as long as there are 3 in the marriage.

I have let him cake-eat this whole time and I just can't do it anymore. It doesn't make anything better and I can't keep letting my feelings overtake my common sense. You are too right about the drama too, thats why I am choosing to step away.

I'm not leaving him, just the relationship with "them."

I told him what Michelle said and he sounded relieved. I told him that he didn't have to choose, that I had said he had until July and that I would honor that committment. However until all contact with the OW stopped, that I would no longer participate in R/M. I will be available to talk about the kids, finances or anything pertaining to the running of our household, but thats all.

Had to go to D6 "Student of the Moth" awards assembly this a.m. and he told me that he knew what he was going to do. He wanted us to work and that he needed his time with his counselor and that he needs time to get rid of OW too. I couldn't help it, I told him the longer he kept her around, the harder it will be. He said he knew, but didn't really say much more and I dropped it. I don't know what is going to happen, all I can do at this point is take care of my kids and myself and let the chips fall where they may.

I think he meant it when he said it, but actions speak louder than words and he is going to have to not only talk the talk, but walk the walk.