Thanks Kerry! I hate feeling like this, like I am pinning all my hopes on whether or not a "man" wants me or not. But he isn't just any man, he is my husband and the father of my children, I really hurt more for them even than for me. Today is just a "down" day for me because it sucks when you can't have what you want, and it doesn't matter how hard you try since it isn't up to you.
But I know I need to do this, I need to draw my line, I need to have my standards, I need to have my strength and convictions or I am not showing myself respect, so how can I get it from anybody else??
I don't want my daughter to learn from me that it is okay to settle....Kerry I like the idea of picturing what a committed, dedicated, reliable Dan would look like. Even if things don't work out I should have that picture for anyone I would ever let share my life with me and my kids........
I haven't contacted H since my last post which is good b/c the way I have been feeling it would be more of the flirting with an undercurrent of neediness which he SO does not need to get from me right now...
