Piecing...gosh this is hard ll

[a new 2moro]

I TM H YESTERDAY THE ILY TM....HIS BACK WAS "WE WILL MAKE IT"

MY UNCLE WAS HOME AND SAID WE BOTH LOOKED VERY HAPPY AND H WAS TREATING ME SO MUCH BETTER

THOSE 2 YRS BEFORE THE BOMB WERE HELL. TALK ABOUT WALKING ON EGG SHELLS

[WCW]

an2, I have a mare that we almost lost year, she is very special to us. This will be her last year with us, H recently shared with me how he would like her final time to be handled. He cried, we cried.
It's so odd, I feel like there are things that tie him to me and he struggles so hard to cut those ties to me. Yet, he says I should make my plans to travel and I can count on him to take care of things at home while I am gone. He comes to all my family stuff again. It's like H wants the life we created together but without me in it.
Pretty confusing, and if it confuses me it must be even worse for H!
It is great all the nice things you are hearing from your H, it must feel very good. Have you heard of 'soft feel' in horse training? That's what I think is taking place with your H and mine too maybe. The rope is in our hands but there is plenty of slack and they can feel that the other end of the rope is where they can be secure, they just have to learn to trust it.

[a new 2moro]

WCW...I THINK THE LOSS OF SMUDGIE WAS ONE OF THE FACTORIES IN HIS FINAL DECSION TO COME HOME...I THINK WHEN OZ DIED IT WAS THE PUSH TO STOP THE PA WITH OW AFTER HE HAD BEEN HOME. HE SAID IT WAS HORRIBLE TO SEE ME IN SUCH PAIN AND HE SAID THAT WAS WHAT HE DID TO ME.

[amd]

Hang in there, N2M. He wouldn't be home if he didn't want to be. Keep extending love and kindness, and keep speaking your truth. Be well.

[a new 2moro]

somedays im ok then other days i just plummet thinking this will never work...he will just not ever let go of OW...then somedays i have the strength to get thru this...

[amd]

You always have the strength, N2M. Trust it and draw from it. Whatever he does, you can endure.

[a new 2moro]

THANKS AMD...SUCH KIND WORDS. STILL SAYING HE LOVES ME IM THE ONE.....HES CUDDLY WANTS ME NEXT TO HIM...BUT NO INTAMCY. AND OW IS STILL IN HIS APT BUILDING. SMALLER APT. I GUESS SHE SHES A PART OF OUR LIVES....UGH

[a new 2moro]

ALL MY OLD THREADS HAVE BEEN DELETED ??????

[butterflymom]

Looks like they've deleted everything older than around June of 2007. That sucks. My older ones are gone too. Hopefully they will be back.

[ACJ]

I don't know anything about building and maintaining websites but I guess it all comes down to memory in the end. Its shame if all of our old posts are gone b/c I for one use my old posts to remind me of just how far I have come. I think it also enables others to look back at someone's sitch to help them sort out their own lives.

Mods if you can bring them back please