I'm a mess. Couldn't sleep last night, got a call from H this morning that just set me over the edge again. Why am I having such a hard time dealing with this when I really felt that I had a good handle on it up until yesterday? Why does he feel the need to tell me in one breath that there really and truly is a chance for us and in the next breath tell me that the reason why he never said that he was in the least bit unhappy was because he thought it wouldn't do any good.
Today's morning blow: when my H called the kids to say good morning, my D6 said that she didn't want to talk to him. That it felt like her heart was broken and that the hospital couldn't even go through her belly to fix it.
I know I'm just running through the same circles, the same hoops and I can't stop. Just like my husband can't do anything to help our situation. Just like I can't stop crying.
Me: 42/H: 37 T: 10 years/M: 8 D9, S8 Bomb: 7.23.07 Separated: 1.20.08 D Final 3.19.09 Affair started in '05, found out parts in 11/07. They married 11.26.09