The gates of my xh's hell opened last night. His demons have grown bigger than I ever imagined.
Last night was oficially the longest most meaningful conversation we have had since he walked out the door. It was also a very very sad tragic conversation. He has held so much inside for his entire life I'm not sure if he will ever be able to live a happy life and accept what it has given him.
Some of you know of his fertility problems and his need to have a child of his own. Preferable male. When I used to refer to OW as his brood mare, I wasn't far off the mark.
I will try and post more later about our conversation, but right now I feel like it's too personal. He's so lost in his life about his incapabilities.
I would like to help him, but I don't know if I can. I know he needs to sort things out for himself, but I also know that he will need guidance much stronger than I can give.
The world is his enemy.
How the hell does this happen?? Do they just keep this bottled inside them until it becomes such a huge infection their is no treatment for it?
I gained some very knowledgable insight to the mind of the MLC'er last night. It's overwhelming.
Since I haven't a clue now of what to do, I shall do nothing. I will continue on as planned, but I have a deeper understanding of him now.
Hugs,
Jeanette
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Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
