I'm really finding these self books are really working for me. I have a lot of growth and reflection yet but it's a continual journey I think.
As for my career. I'm really up in the air with this. I'm just about to receive a severance from my work.. I'm not sure how much time they'll give me but during that time I really need to figure out and start working toward a career. I'm wanting to find something fulfilling. I've been working for a paycheque my entire life and I want to find something that I feel passionate about. I just don't currently know what that is. Part of me would like to get into Yoga.. maybe become an instructor.. but (and I know I'll likely get 2x4's for saying this) but as a single Mom with no one living family wise nearby I am kind of stuck trying to find a career that would have me working while daycare is available. That means no shifts, strictly days. I know you're probably thinking that my H should help me so that I can follow my passions.. but he's already in his career and thriving.. a normal work week for him is around 60 hours.. then he has his busy time where I would say that he works around 100 hours a week.. So I kind of feel like my options are a little stunted. But I know that my inner spirit/higher power/God will help me to realize my full potential. I just need to receive (watch for, listen for or feel) what is the right direction for me.
T, welcome back. How was San Fran?
Stella, I looked for your thread yesterday... but couldn't find it.. I'll look for you again today.
Kalni, you must have been very busy at work today because I don't believe I saw many postings from you so thank you for taking a moment to post to me! I hope things slow down a bit for you again soon.
Lisa/One Day.. I have read your entire threads and feel that we do have a lot of similarities in our sitch.. I don't know about you but I am content with the fact that H and I are friendly.. much less stressful.. but not "really" talking, like about my feelings.. which is something I was able to do in the past.. is challenging for me.
Bear, I hope you do get the book... I think it will help you to focus on you!! I know it's helping me.
Now, I must mention briefly an interaction with H today. I'm choosing to be unreactive about this (although maybe I'm kidding myself?). Now, to get the full jist of this I need to explain to you that when everything hit initially I had said to H that D2 and I would move to the city if being out in the burbs was contributing to his "unhappiness".. and then when the realtor was here appraising the house I told him that I am not ready to move and that I didn't want to move or sell our house unless it was to have a fresh start as a family in a new place. (Hmmm, this is proving to take a little bit more thread space than I intended!). Anyway, on the phone today he said he had a followup email from the realtor and that the houses they mentioned in our neighbourhood sold for the listing prices they told us.. I said "interesting".. He said that he explained we weren't looking to sell right at this moment but if they could look into "Lofts" in the city (he gave street boundaries) and send him some listings so we can see what's out there that that would be great. Now, I know that I'm not supposed to analyze this.. especially since this is the same thing he mentioned when the realtor was at the house and we weren't as "friendly" at that time.. but if he's actually serious about investigating places in the city this would mean one of three things: 1. He would like us as a family to sell the house and move to the city. 2. He would like us as a property owners to sell our house and he will move to the city and D2 and I will move wherever. 3. He's curious to know what is available and for what price in the city.
I know I can't read his mind.. and I at this time I don't want to because it's either good, bad or just curiousity.. and I'm not up for the BAD.. so I'd rather just leave it alone.. but I have to say, in moments of weakness today my mind did wonder at times..
