Still stuck in Limbo Land

[MariS]

Mary,

Thank you for checking in on me. I will keep my stitch short & summarized due to time.

It has been close to 2months since I logged in last. A LOT has happened in my life since then AND, I know realize why God had me fight so hard for my M.

It is with deep sadness that I lost my one remaining ill parent this past month, but I am good. We had a GREAT parent/daughter relationship and I have NO regrets....just those few questions and doubts. Yes, I was fortunate enough to be there with this parent, like my other and help take care of this parent as the spirit/soul left the body. I brought this parent back to their house from the hospital, hospice was becoming involved, just like my other parent, but my time was immensly shorter, not even a day.

My WAH-MLCer took care of our child while I was predominately out of pocket for two weeks. If I had not fought soooo hard for our M, I know this past period in my life would have been more difficult. Especially, since I am an only child and EVERYTHING is on my shoulders for me to do. (Child, WAH-MLCer, two jobs & new business too)

Also, I know that loosing my parent, to me, was easier than dealing with my WAH-MLCer's MLC, Affairs & drinking.

STILL taking everything one day at a time, WAH-MLCer still won't kiss & hold me like we use to. BUT, he does snuggle at night, and seems to finding his way, so I am still holding on.

Mary, I promise I have not forgotten you or the board. It is just this point in my life, I have to truly focus on me. On a good note, I have reached the point within myself, that if WAH-MLCer leaves, so be it. I am GOOD with myself and child.