Not sure how to handle this

[mishka422]

This just feels almost impossible. H is acting like he's in a much better mood today so I will just role with that. He seems to be happy that I am being so accepting of him no matter what he's acting like.

I sometimes feel like I'm being very fake but then I examine the reasons I'm acting the way I am and decide that my current behavior will possible influence the future of my M and it becomes clear. I'm not fake, I'm trying to preserve what little calm I have left!

I am contacting the counselors at our church regarding the marriage mentors program today. It makes me very nervous but I think it will help a lot once we can get past the initial meetings with them. H has the numbers for the IC's. I hope he will call them but I am not going to ask if he did. That would be nagging. I am letting him tell me whatever he wants to tell me in his own time.

Starshyne, it looks like you and I are on very similar timelines as far as the newness of all of this. I am hopeful that my H has not come back too soon as I am sure you are. I know he has so many things to work through for himself and I don't want him to feel like I'm pushing him into anything so I keep my mouth shut.

Does your H talk to you about any of his emotions or where he sees your R headed now or what he wants to see happen in your M? The question I need answered is what does he feel he needs from me in order to feel that we are on the right track? He has no idea why he feels the way he does other than he doesn't feel the emotional connecting with me that we once had. He doesn't have an emotional connection to much of anything anymore though and I'm convinced that is because of the pressures of his job. He really needs to learn to deal with that before he can reconnect with me. I guess maybe I'll get my answer if he ever finds his way through those pressures.