I have a close friend at church that basically knows all about our R. She has been a great source of encouragement and strength for me and there are times that I don't think i'd even care if it wasn't for her! Anyways, H and her H are kinda buddies, so we went to their house for dinner this last weekend. We got to talking, just sharing our pasts, getting to know each other. Her H shared some pretty personal stuff as did she, so when it was my turn, I kinda laid it all out. It made me cry, but it felt good to say how i was feeling in front of other people with H hearing. Maybe he'll believe it since i told other people. who knows.... so when H went to talk about how he grew up and life in general, everything was just sooo normal. In regards to EA, he understands and just wants to make the M better. My friend emailed me later and told me that now she sees what i mean when i say H won't deal with it. It was nice to have the back up, but part of me was really hoping he'd use this as an opportunity to get something out. I know I'm not supposed to have any expectations, but I'm still not very good at that part. At least he said he still wants to work on it, even if nothing is realy being done.
Other than that, just more of the same! Limbo...
- where2go and tomato - Thanks for stopping by and for your encouragement. I am really just trying to focus on the things in me that I can make better and control and taking care of my babies right now. Don't get me wrong, I am still doing all my wife stuff, but I'm not playing his little games with him. For instance: night before last, I was taking my time for me after I put the girls to bed and he got upset about something that had nothing to do with me, so I responded by saying that I didn't know and ignored the rest of his rant. I don't need that kinda stress right now.
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
