Theoden, I can promise you I won't do numbers 1-4, but #5 crying will be hard for me. I am the type to cry at those Hallmark card commercials, so that will be a challenge, but I will try. If I start I'll just have to dash into my room or something. I will be there with the kids, so H can feel the weight. I don't think he will realize it all until then; I think he has just been focused on the good stuff like being with OW. I did plan to do fun stuff with the kids all afternoon and evening and just being together I think will be good.
LWB, I feel the same way as you do, I do want H to be happy, b/c he doesn't seem happy right now, and hopefully this will do it for him as he believes. And it's really not been healthy for the kids and I to have him around the way he is acting, so I think it will be good for us as well (that's what I am telling myself).
Last night, H went to OW's and got home at almost 8:30, then was somewhat snotty to me, and seemed depressed. You would think he would want to spend more time with his kids this last week at home than OW, but no. Tonight he goes out until midnight, so Friday will be his last night with the kids (I'll be at rehearsal).
I realized afterwards that last night was our last night together, well that hour we spent together, and then I went to bed before him. It was depressing being around him, and this is kind of how it goes: I was telling him I just found out that for some of the quick costume changes during the play we won't have time to go to the dressing room, but will have to change backstage in front of everyone in the cast, guys and girls. I don't mind changing in front of women at all, but feel a little weird about changing in front of guys, even though they are friends. I told H about that and H said something like Yeah, I had to do that when I did a play, no big deal, you just have to get over that in a snotty voice like he thought I was weird to be thinking like that. But I think most women my age would be thinking like that!!!
I was in a good mood before he got home, but after spending an hour with him was totally depressed. I understand why he is distant with me after being with OW, but don't really get why he is snotty and depressed when he will be moving in with her in a few days. You'd think he'd be walking around happy! I accidentally walked into the room unexpectedly last night one more time before going to bed and he was texting OW again, which he does almost nonstop now (I don't think he can control himeself). Hopefully, moving in with her will help him control that, cause I wonder how he even does his job now (probably not really well!).
I saw my C today which was great and just cried the whole hour which I probably needed. I am going to try to focus on just the play and not H during rehearsals the next 3 days, and it will be over hopefully before I know it. At this point, I think I just kind of want this to be over with!!! Karen
