So last night was "just OK". We had dinner at the wine bar, had a nice time and talked a lot, but I could tell she was under a bit of a black cloud. I didn't push it, I was just myself and I kept the convo light. Work stuff, things I've been doing etc.
Then she told me something interesting. She said, if we did go our separate ways, she knows I would hook up with someone easily because I am "a catch". I said, well thanks for that...but if I'm a "catch", why are you resisting getting back with me? "I don't know exactly" she said.
So, the convo carried on to other topics, and we eventually left and went to her place. We cracked a bottle of wine and she asked if I'd give her a foot rub, so I said sure.
The convo came back around to "us" again (from her, not me) and we ended up really having a good talk. I was super cool, and she did most of the talking.
She feels that coming back home would feel like a "failure to execute her plan" that she had been cooking up over the past year or so. I said, yeah, I can see that, especially based on how we were when you left. Of course you have to realize things have changed between us now, and you would not be coming back to the same situation....she knows that, and that's the part that makes her want to come home, but "the past" makes her 2nd-guess her decision.
I told her she thinks too much!
She asked if I was getting frustrated with her indecision. I said yes, a bit, but she can take her time, it has to feel right to her. No guarantees on how long I will wait, however. She said she was frustrated as well, with her own indecision!
We slept together (no sex this time, both too tired) and drove in to work together. I know I am in a "cool" mood, I need to snap out of it, she doesn't need to see this.
Dropped her off at work, I said "see you Saturday" and that was it. Like I said before, at least neutral isn't backwards!
