I know you don't want to take another huge loss. I can't imagine what it's been like for you to suffer the losses you've already had. IMP is right about our capacity as humans and your need to focus on what you do have. Your D's need you, whether they're showing it or not. They need you to teach them how to handle tragic situations in their lives. They need you to love them and make them feel safe. I know it's hard. You can do it though. I hear the pain and I hear the strength. You could not come through the other tragedies in your life without some steel in your bones.
