The things I'm trying to do to GAL and feel better about myself right now.... *Eat better and exercise (need to really get into exercising though!) *Reading self-esteem building books *Scrapbooking (I'm up to D's 11th month and she's 7! I've got to get caught up!) *Playing with D more and being a better mom (focus on us, not on R with H)
Also, here is an email I got from H this morning when I came into work. I think it's his Dear John letter to me....
Hey You,
I'm really sorry that I didn't call last night. I was so beside myself not knowing what to do about things that I kind of had a little breakdown. I still haven't made my decision about the job, the money would be great, but at the same time I know things are changing here and the position would end up being temporary. I know that there may be other opportunities but the possibility of me being considered would be difficult without having my degree. Its killing me. I have always thought I was a good person and made good decisions, but lately I just don't know any more. I wish things had played different in our life's. I'm grateful for so many things and at the same time wonder what I did so wrong that things turned out the way they did. I'm really starting to hate myself and that is not a good thing. I'm sooooo sorry that life has played such a bad trick on us. They say things happen for a reason, but this is one lesson I didn't need right now. I'm so tired of being scared, so tired of second guessing myself, so tired of not knowing anything anymore. Its really time for me to make some good decisions.
Sorry to have babbled, just need to right now. Ill give you a call later.
Am I reading this wrong, or does this sound like Dear John to you all as well?
