Worried I found DB too late #2

[cw68]

Well, the biggest change is that I'd have to go back to work full-time and put my kids in childcare. We'd all have to adjust to that. Honestly, I'm a bit concerned about my ability to make enough money for the rest of my lifetime, but I don't care about actually going back to work. Other than that, not much would change. This is my second and last marriage, regardless of how it turns out. I can live without him, I just don't want to and don't want to do that to our kids.

Like you, I am doing what I'm supposed to be doing. I think our odds of survival as marriage partners are low, but I'm going to grab onto the chance with a firm grip. My kids deserve it, our marriage deserves it and I deserve it. My H doesn't know this, but he deserves it too.

Patience is my lesson here. I'm not going to give in just because my H can't see the value of saving his marriage. I'm not going to let him decide my morals and values, I'm going to fight the good fight because it's what I think I should do.

All the naysayers out there try to wear me down and I brush them off. "How can you just sit there and let your H dictate everything?" Answer: "What choice to do I have when I want to save our marriage?" "Boy, you sure are a glutton for punishment. You deserve someone who treats you better." I respond: "I'm not a sucker, I'm not going to settle for less than I need and deserve, but I'm also not going to buy into the belief that I should stop working so hard or to get out of a marriage that is not meeting my current emotional needs. I'm in it for the long haul."