No....

You are not taking it all in....

Because you haven't been told anything different today then you were told yesterday, or last week or the week before or the week before that.

Nobody here likes to see you in pain.

But your pain is no different then anyone else's.

We are all here by circumstance, not because it was something we chose.

I hate it that your Husband is gone.

I hate it that many posters here are suffering needlessly.

I hate it that so many children have to go without because one of their parents decided to change the rules of the game and run away.

But...

What I hate even more then all of that is the victim mentality.

Yes, you are going through some hard times.

But you have a job, and a roof over your head.

You have food in your belly and your heat is on.

You have your health.

You have money for cigarettes and coffee.

You have money to put gas in your car.

It could be worse.

Dar, IF he wants a Divorce he will get one when he is ready.

If he wanted one so badly, he would have already started the process.

Leave the Man alone.

Stop the contact.

Pretend he is far away in a Land that has no form of communication.

Or that he is lost at sea.

Or he is in outer space.

Or he is in the secret service on a mission.

Or anything you want, just stop the contact for now until you get your sh*t together and can handle any form of comunication with him.

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.