Get some type of help for financial help, either chid support or maintainance.
Go see someone to secure your finances.
Set up a regular visitation for your Daughter.
If he shows up, great.
This is why I said that I didn't mean anything hurtful by it either. I was simply asking a question as to why. I see other posters and they're going through the same thing and are encouraged to be strong where I'm encouraged to change and leave him alone since he's gone. I know he's gone. I live with that every day.
I've never said my way is THE right way. It's obvious that it's not.