I don't know what I'm doing! Another Bomb!

[gsr1]

This2shallpass,
Thank you so much for your prayers, and I am trying my best to let this all hit him right between the eyes right now. It sounds like you gave it your all with your H, and I'm sorry things are not going well, I want to read more of your past posting I'm sure the people here have given you some help along the way and I may get some more insight on how to deal with H.

For now I just can't imagine knowing anything about OW, couldn't imagine consoling H about her, the way I see it to me she is a non entity, a joke to me. He knows that if she were to know the real him she would have nothing to do with my H, he was actually afraid that I would tell her everything, but I know she would not believe me anyway, but then it'll be all on her so who cares right? The way I see it if shes knows shes messing with a married man shes probably doing someone else when hes away anyway, isn't that what women like her do? He is so naive if he thinks this OW is actually being faithful to him.

Right now we are at about rock bottom, he is giving up his job to be home with us finally, and it is at a very high cost financially, but at this point, I'm making him man up to his responsibilities, he said he understands and will not resent me, he knows this is what needs to be done, I can't keep cleaning up after him.

Well we'll see how this goes like my post title I don't know what I am doing, but somethings gotta give, and like you said he has to hit rock bottom, this is all on him now, he will have to see how hard it really is to deal with reality on a daily bases and stop living this fantasy double life he has been living for the past 11 years.

Hugs,
gsr1