Karen, I too have had those types of dreams about H and OW.
Right now I think you are doing the right thing by going dark on him. We all know that no matter how much talking we do to them to try convince them to come home, they won't do it unless they want to. Sure we all backslide from time to time. Just continue taking care of yourself and the kids. Let him see that you are strong and doing a fine job without him. You'll eventually find out that "hey, I can do this by myself". He may come home, he may not, but you know you will be okay. I do think the sooner we get strong, the better. I haven't always done a good job of this, but I do think it is the key to them seeing the LBS in a favorable way. It's not only for them, but for yourself as well.
I have seen so much growth in you lately. Keep the great PMA and GAL.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon