So tell me restless, what kind of man do YOU want to be? What are your plans for getting there?
It's hard not to be consumbed by pain and the clutching for hope early on. You need to do something for yourself everyday. It can be small, it doesn't have to be running a marathon. You need to take care of you and value yourself.
Keep posting. HUGS
Hi Grace, oh I feel most horrible in the mornings and part of the early day. But I have renewed my social circle of friends, been working out have dropped about 30lbs(and counting), re-established my relationship with God, therapy to work on my issues I have, applying to get my masters degree. This is all for me, I realize that I may never be back with my WAW. If things go as she would have me believe then the D will be final in a few more months. I do what I can for myself and the rest I have just laid down to God and I pray for a possible miracle.
Although it is a miracle already that I am where I am. Last few years things were absolutely horrible for me and the W. We both lost touch socially with all our friends etc. She did open up and tell me she had no real life friends hence I feel this might be more of a finding herself and blocking me out thing as well. (I don't know) trying not to think about stuff that will just drive me crazy. Well another day, urge to call W has passed
