nocode, I think "M" is right, there will always be ups and downs, and the downs will always hurt (especially concrete ones, like divorce papers). But I pray that the downs will just eventually be a twinge of pain, instead of a raw open wound...someday down the road.
I know we have been talking on each other's threads about praying for the WAS. When I make any sort of wish (fountain, eyelash, silly stuff) or pray, its for my girls, for H, and for us all to find peace. I feel that is what I need to ask for right now. I am slowly finding strength, so I know that is being 'delivered'.
beauty, thanks for stopping by. I realized lately (like many parents) that I have done most of the work in the past with the kids and just hadn't realized it yet. My 'load' is no heavier with regards of what I have been doing since H has been gone. We can do this!
Yoyo, thank you for coming by. I appreciate the support, I really do. And yes, the silver linings are there. Instead of worrying about when H will stop by (to see the girls) we have a pretty set schedule and I do what I want, when I want. I notify him (via text) about our activites or if they have a sitter, but don't really 'ask' anymore.
I have decided to take Easter off and spend the day at home with the girls. No huge family function. The Easter Bunny will come here in the morning, then church, then I'll make dinner for them. H will be invited.
