My guess is that he is confused. In some way he still loves you and knows it. He enjoyes being with you, but he can't allow himself to acknowledge it because then it means his other feelings about wanting freedom are wrong. WAS's can't allow that their vision of the greener grass could possibly be wrong.
Welcome to the world of the yo-yo.
Don't let it get to you. Know what it is and don't let it drive your emotions.
Saw H today but was very brief. He stopped by my work to give me the key to the garage. He had taken it home in his pocket accidentally last night (he was here visiting with D2 last night). I sent him a txt in the morning asking if he forgot to leave it.. and he said yes. Thankfully I found the other key otherwise I wouldn't have been able to get my car out of the garage to get to work. Since he's seeing D2 on Monday and Wednesday this week I had assumed he would just bring it tomorrow night.. but he called me at work and said he wanted to drop it off. When he did drop it off, as I said it was a very brief meeting, he had this really warm smile... almost a laughing smile on his face. It kind of threw me. He looked so warm, so handsome.. I'm not sure if he was reacting to someone on his cell phone (he had the ear piece in) or if it was actually for me. In any event it was just refreshing to see that look on his face... not something I get to see these days.
On to tonight. H called to say goodnight to D2.. we chatted for a bit.. he was telling me about his day tomorrow and asked if maybe we could get together for lunch on Thursday. I responded that it would be nice! The reason I find this note worthy is because during our R talk on Saturday I mentioned that it's impossible for him to view me as a woman, as a partner, as anything more than D2's Mommy when every time he sees me I am D2's Mommy. Meaning we never do stuff just the 2 of us... so I don't know if that's what lunch is all about.. don't know anything.. Just taking it one day at a time these days.
Also forgot to mention.. during talk on Saturday it came up that I've had a couple of people offer to set me up.. but I explained to H that I am no where near ready for that.. and he wanted to know who offered. I told him I didn't want to say. He said that he doubted he'd ever see the person any way so I should just tell him.. and I again replied that I would rather not say. He asked probably 5 times... interesting.. but not going to read anything into it. What I would like to say about these offers is... I feel good that people think I'm worthy enough to set up on dates.. it's nice to know that some people think I'm a good catch even if my H doesn't seem to think so!
and one from me, ((((((((W2G))))))), sorry don't have time to write a post, will do later. Interesting news, the lunch with H!
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
Good luck with lunch on Thurs. You will have to keep us updated
Hugs and Love Bear
Me 42-Him 40 T20yrs Married 16yrs 2/06 H- "not sure if i want to be married anymore" 6/07 H-"I'm not happy" 9/07 Admits affair & OW 12/08 I moved out 12/09 still waiting for divorce
Ok.. I believe I just received a definite baby step.. and I'm trying very hard to control my enthusiasm.
My H just called. He had a dentist appointment... and our dentist is located right by our orthodontist (both of us have braces).. We used to schedule our ortho appts to happen at the same time and then would leave together.. stop and get a Starbucks and then he'd drop me off at work. Anyway, when he called just now he said that he was going to stop into the Starbucks and grab a latte for me and deliver it to me at work!!!
I know it may seem like I'm really exaggerating my excitement.. but I am just SOOOOO PLEASED!!! Now I just need to put some fresh lip gloss on and make sure I look absolutely amazing.. although not overly enthusiastic when I see him!
Interesting.. I hadn't even thought of that.. I had thought my main one was Quality Time. I'm going to need to re-read that book.. I didn't do the test at the back because I lent it out so quickly.
Oh, and thank you for stopping by Kerry. I really hope you decide to hang out here for a while.. I agree that you have a lot of good things to offer the rest of us DBers.
