I just got the book by jim conway about Men in MLC. It is allready really helpful to me and my understanding how this is all about my H's issues and that hopefully my H will come out of this a better person.
I sometimes wonder why I am so hurt by my H and his doings. It just seems impossible to ignore and not let it bother me some times. I think this last week or two were especially bad since he had just left me again.
I feel like my H's and your H's time lines are kindof similar. Three yrs ago, he went into debt and I could see his depression and unhappiness, then 2 yrs ago he was constantly angry and dissatisfied with everything in life and left me in the dust along with having an EA, now the third yr I feel like he has spent much of it in replay and still looking for bandaids along with cycling back and forth with me. One day he says he loves me dearly and the next he wants nothing to do with me.
I know I have to be strong, have patience, and keep my goals in focus. But I dip through such hard battles with this at times.
I hope your H is coming through the tunnel. When he is gone, does your H still seem to be seeking bandaids or is he apparently done with that part of the phase? My H still seeks booze and acceptance from random people, and now his next thing is that he wants to go buy a house instead of renting any longer. This scares me due to his financial situation and because I am sure it is because he wants to have a dog of his own.
