Hello Mr. MLC part deux!!

[mymonkeybug]

Kerry-

H insists there hasn't been and isn't an A but I wonder sometimes. I mean how else could he literally go from letting me do what I do and him doing what he does one night to walking out the next professing ILYBNILWY. I wonder if he was in an A or at least and emotional A and felt that euphoric newness feeling and thought to himself hey this is how it should feel with Heather and since it doesn't I need to leave hence professing ILYBNILWY.

Yep, FG will love reading that as there I go analyzing again...wonder what really caused this as opposed to accepting that it just happened and moving onto the next day.

Another thing I think I have in my favor is that H has not in any way shape or form done anything legal, while he sure maybe has gotten some legal advice, I have not been served with D papers or even legal seperation papers of any sort. He seems to think we can just be seperated physically for 12 months then walk into a court room and ask a judge to grant us a divorce like it was a normal day.

I worry though about this and maybe anyone reading can give their opinions. He has sold a couple things since leaving. An old broken 4 wheeler we had in the garage for $200 and an engine hoist/jack for possibly another $100-$200 of which I never saw any money from either. The money doesn't worry me since I did keep the income tax return for bills and he whined about that. What I was thinking though is that I should ask him for receipts for the sales that include dates, to whom, and price just incase he pursues me legally since those are OUR assets he is selling off.

I was also thinking of asking him to take pictures and make a detailed listing of that BIG Snap On tool box and all it's contents, a list that includes each tool and their values so that I have that info. incase he pursues me legally since all that is an asset really. I mean if he or I for that matter did anything legal I assume a L would want listings of all our assets like the house, TV's, stereos, furniture, pots, pans, anything and everything right down to toothbrushes.

Opinions would be helpful. I don't know if asking him for receipts and lists with pictures would rock the boat and anger him or if it would be proper to approach him for that. I can approach him in a very even kealed manner, very matter of fact way without being nasty or snide. I think personally he will balk at the idea that I am asking for such things and get upset but I feel that just maybe I need to stop pussy footing around him so much and make sure I have my ducks in a row just incase because he really is totally out of character for himself these days.

Yes he still lets me have all his money from his pay to pay the bills but then I remember how he just walked out and hasn't seemed to look back since. How he went from being a SUPER fulltime daddy to being OK being a very part time father that seems to be withdrawing even more each week over the last month. I think about how he went form being my lover and best friend and talking to me all the time to acting like I am a stranger and barely speaking to me. Telling me one day he lives with friends up town to telling me a week later he is still living with his parents and driving around with a weeks worth of dirty laundy in the back of his truck. He doesn't seem to even know which way is up these days, his head is in a HUGE fog.

I guess I just worry that something may happen and I might wake up one morning by a police officer knocking at my door with D papers and I will be completely unprepared without any idea of the assets he has regarding his tools which from talk in the past by him equals a GREAT deal of $$$ and then knowing he has no quams selling things off in an attempt just to fill his own pocket with money, money that was never a priority before he left. Before he left he didn't like having an empty pocket but fully UNDERSTOOD we lived paycheck to paycheck but now that he is gone he wants HIS and is doing what he needs to get it. He has become very sneaky and secretive with where he is and who he is with and I worry again since this is so out of character for him. He was always the H that called asking if it was OK if he didn't come straight home because so and so asked him to the bar for pool or a drink after work, he was always the H that asked if it was OK to buy this or that or spend on something because he knew how the bills were. But now that he is gone and the bills haven't changed he doesn't seem to care just as long as he has money so he can be happy. He has also been told by me about the new bills for son and the therapist and shrink and how electricity just had a major hike from our provider.

Wow did I ramble. Sorry guys I think it's the hormones this week. You know how us women get monthly. And since most of you posting in my thread are men I will apologize now...lol.