Thanks for this. Yeah, it is a tough place. It's the sense of not really knowing where things are at on an extended basis that I find particularly stressful. I know my own perceptions of things also get haywire because I've felt so traumatized by the cutoff that I am almost paranoid about "what might X mean--or not mean??". You don't get lots of info to go on, and the "meaty stuff" like MLC seems off the W's radar...they still seem to think it's just about the relationship. It's like, yes, that's definitely a part of it, but....um....hello, MLC???!!!
Sorry to hear your sitch. 10 months is a long time in. It's really a long haul, isn't it? It's a tough place when our hearts are still in such a tender and caring but also broken place.
BTW, I am feeling a little better this evening. You guys will be proud: Purr went to a social event and did a great job connecting with some new people(!). I followed through on it for me and had a nice time. You know, one thing I find so hard is that I get this feedback from others at work, friends, family, etc. about some of my good qualities and that I am a very kind and sincere person with "goodness". It's hard to reconcile being seen in these kinds of ways by others and being loved but not "in loved" by W. I'm the same person.
