hee, beth, I figured you'd probably know what a hoodsie is. they have red sox logos on them (do they usually?), and I have a bunch left over, so think we'll do a little opening day celebration with them, too.
yep, lwb, I'm hanging in there. and yep, renting a space next year. no doubt about it. or drastically cutting down on the number of kids!
okay, had my first really big crying jag in a long time tonight. just all sucks, really hurts, am revistiting things from last year. but I will be okay. had IC today and had a really good session...we talked about a lot of what I'll be dealing with, and yep, letting those feelings come and that river flow...but also realize just how far I have come, what a different place I am in. and that's a good thing. still, damn, it hurts. but I will be okay...better than okay.
I decided to go ahead and invite h to easter morning (egg hunt/breakfast). before I could, he e-mailed me and asked very nicely if I would mind, that he would understand if I said no, but he would like very much to come for the egg hunt/breakfast. funny, considering how much he has been yammering on about not caring about holidays anymore. anyway, I wrote him back and said that would be fine. so we'll see how it goes. I think it will be okay, and it will only be for a couple of hours in the morning, so shouldn't be an issue. and if its tougher than I expect, well, it will be over with shortly and lesson learned.
not much else to tell. started potty training S3. yes, I know he's going to be 4 tomorrow and should be trained already, but he's a stubborn little thing. no more playing around with it, though...time to get serious. loving, but firm. its not going to be easy, but he's trying and it will get done hopefully in a timely manner. and then that is that...no more pullups! gasp. a life w/o changing diapers/pullups? dare I imagine?????
see, life IS good.
and I do have the best of life. I don't love everything about my life, but I love most of it, and I know how lucky I am right now. and I swear I am a very lucky mom to have 3 awesome kids. they keep showing me in so many ways just how awesome they are. case in point? my S6 is in Kindergarten and they had to do a writing workshop yesterday and write about their favorite animal. what did my son pick? a star nosed mole. yep. I love him. had to google the thing (omg, shudder, nightmare inducing) because I had never even heard of it. but how cool is it that he does???
okay, off to bed. will enjoy their birthday tomorrow...will focus on the good and on THEM, not on h and his choices.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
