You have such awesome inner strength -- I have had faith you will make it just fine, no matter the outcome.
Oh, I spoke to my friend, "M", the other night. Turns out that despite her own unbelievable newfound inner strength, she has found she still has to contend with weaker moments. She said that she had a really low, rough day on Sunday. It was another weekend without her DD's, and with the big D looming ever closer, she was starting to feel depressed and panicked. "M" said she had felt so strong for so long because she had been naive to think their M had a chance -- but now that the D is a certainty, she feels the wind going out of her sails.
I told her that it just had to be another of those cyclical things, with the hills and valleys, the lows and highs. It would get better with time, and the extremes would cease to be so... extreme.
