Help I fell off the DB wagon

[sandycay]

Okay, trying to look at the positives today. After an all nighter with sick son. I txt H that his buddy was very sick and he called within 2 minutes, for that I am grateful.

Told him we had dr appt at 10:30 and he said to let him know how it went. He called me at 10:50 to check to see what dr said. Of course, we hadn't seen dr yet, so I called to fill him in after that. I am thankful he cares for his son.

He called home this afternoon and talked to S and told him he had to work late tonight and probably wouldn't see him today. This will be the 1st time since he left that he missed a day seeing them. I am grateful he called and told him early in afternoon, instead of us waiting to see if and when he would show up.

I am really trying to focus on the positive things I see and not dwell on the negative things that I don't see.

Is anyone else restless as hell when you are home. I can't seem to get comfortable in this new skin I am suppose to wearing. I hate the radio now and TV sucks. Whoever knew there was so much infedility in the media. It is everywhere.

Last night there was one uncomfortable moment, when he was getting ready to leave and was tickling my around with our daughter and she was trying to get him back and he was holding her off and she said, "DAD, YOUR A CHEATER".

Well, our eyes met on that one and I opened the door and bid him a goodnight and to have a good day tomorrow.

Do the triggers ever go away?

I am such a dork, I tried to edit my post because I said my daughter in the 1st post and I thought I was changing it to our daughter. Too little sleep and too little food these days.