Re. the weekend, I am going back to Iowa for 2 birthday parties, one niece on Saturday and one niece on Sunday. H will be here in Missouri working on the house/basement. We are supposed to "meet up" Friday night so he can eat supper w/the kids since otherwise it will be another whole week until he sees them again....
I know that drawing that line w/him is important for me. He needs to know that I have made it far too easy for him for far too long. If he decides that having me back/having his family together (but mostly the ME part since he'll always have his kids in some way or another) isn't worth his effort then I will truly know what I am worth in his eyes. If he walks and keeps walking I will know I made the right decision b/c it was bound to happen at some point whether I "pushed" or not.
Today was 70% good. I enjoyed teaching the kids I had, and am supposed to have for the next 10 weeks. Also I got home and there was a message from the school back "home". The woman who interviewed me left a msg. saying she wanted to talk to me re. the position I interviewed for.....her voice exuded a "Smiling" sound--know how sometimes you can HEAR a person's smile in their voice??? So I think it means I got the job. I will be calling her back in the morning............
The only thing that sucked was I didn't hear one peep from H. Not a text, not a call. I know I asked him for space......it is just that frustrating thing I mentioned yesterday. I know (that's what I get for snooping!) that he would text OW 5-10 times a day some days and call her 3-5 times on top of that.So it pi$$es me off that yesterday he says he clearly will need to make an effort to show me he wants our M back, then he falls off the face of the earth? Maybe it was unhealthy the fixation he has/had w/OW, but it is an ego-killer to think he gets more excited about contacting her than me......When she would get po'd at him for not leaving me he would call and text her over and over trying to get her to talk to him. But me.....................nothing
So anyway that is the only irritating thing right now. I want a little pursuing to come my way even if I said I needed space...
OH and it is 55 in here today. Propane comes tomorrow. But it is only 6:30 pm so it will probably get around 50 while we are sleeping!!! H said yesterday if it gets to 50 we should just go to a hotel...
