You cannot control what H will do. He may leave. That's just the reality for any of us. You have to realize even if he does, YOU will be okay. If your son wants to go to college nothing is going to stop him. Stop worrying and enjoy this moment. If H goes out to Barnes & Noble (and even if he's visiting the disgusto OW), you do something for yourself....
There is no arriving, ever. It is all a continual becoming.
