W told me last night to just take things easy...I said "no problem, I'm in a different mindset than before anyway".
She said "I know that last time I wigged out when you put on the pressure. If it happens again, I know I'll be out 'til at least June". I said "don't worry, you aren't gonna wig out this time...no pressure at all".
"Good" she said.
So she's waving me in, but at a walk, not a run. Mild threats for me to behave myself "or else"
I can easily do this. Her pace is fine with me. Before, I got waaaay too eager...this time, because I am detached, I can just enjoy the easy pace and continue my great life as a bachelor.
I hope this narrative is helping someone other than me, and that it's not too boring!
