ms ladybug concerned...MR bug wants to move home.

[ms ladybug]

It all began last Sat. I asked h to watch the kids for a couple hours while I went to a baby shower. He was his usual cold, grumpy self when he came over and I quickly left. I got home and D4 asked to go on a bike ride. So, I said sure, "After your bike ride, we'll go to Costco." H was still there and said, "Why don't we go to Costco first?"
WE?? Ok. I went along with it and we ALL went to Costco. We still have a joint account, so we both bought some things we needed. It was a semi-pleasant trip. When we got home, H said he needed to hurry because he was meeting his friends to go hunting. So, I said, "no worries. I'll bring in the groceries myself, just be sure to get the things you need from them."

His reply..."I was thinking. If we're going to work on our marriage, I think I should move back home. It just makes sense to live together while trying to make things work."

Work on our marriage?? Umm, I filed for divorce last week. HE didn't want to work on our marriage until I filed!! NOW, he's saying he's willing to do ANYTHING to save our marriage. INCLUDING, going back to church with me, going to MC with me, and of course, no more calling ex-gf's.

I'm a bit floored now! I have no idea how to handle this. I think I got to the point in my life that I was OK without him, and in fact I was able to look ahead and see a happy life. Now, he wants back home?? I told him I would have to see MAJOR changes before I'd feel OK about that. He told me that I need to not live in the past (well, the past IS only a week old), and to try to look ahead. He also told me that it's like a junkie...they say they'll quit, but most often they relapse, and it takes time. But, I need to trust that things will be better and give it a fighting chance.

I know in my heart that THIS would be God's will. For us to NOT divorce...it's just not MY will right now. So, I need to trust God.

I'm so confused...