No, I have actually been thinking about this a lot today. Faith is something I need more of in my life and the love and support I"m getting from my friends here has been great for me.
Frank, I'm in the middle of a newly released book: "A Reason for God". Interesting read so far. You are quite an intellectual thinker and I think it might appeal to you. If not anything else, it may be a brief distraction from all the struggles you are facing.