I don't know if my H cheated on me or not. My story is he's had a problem with porn, but 1. I found a very graphic letter that he typed and I don't know where it came from or who it was to. 2.I found out he posted a naked picture of himself on an adult web site.
I didn't do a lot of snooping, just some. Didn't find out much. But these things were a total blow to me and I have yet to trust him again, or believe what he tells me without me questioning everything.
When I found the web site thing I packed the kids up and left. Just went to a hotel for the night to collect myself. He apologized, didn't really give me any reason for what he did, just that he didn't feel wanted and wanted to see what reaction he would get. It was quite the excuse.
Anyway he was sorry for what he did, but it didn't change what he did.
Ive already accepted that i won't feel exactly the same for him as I once did. You know, the blind love that you have thinking, "oh he would never do that to me".. Its good and its bad. At least I won't be entirely blindsided again.
theo, I hope things are getting better for you. You have helped so many and deserve some happiness yourself
Fondly,
Tal
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
