Wow Karen, his words sound so true.........he's so mixed up. Not wanting to have any responsibilities, not understanding why he can't do it his way. Right out of MLC's books.
My Ex has certainly had his regrets, he's told my daughter this, he told me a few times he'd wished he would of been in a better mind state. Almost sounded like they can't help it. Just like he seemed to have said. It really is sad.
Like Barb said, some of us seem to think that all we need is an apology and we'll be alright. Then when we do get one, in all different ways, it doesn't really seem to matter.
I remember the feeling of pure panick when my Ex decided he wanted to come back, PANIC, I thought that's what I wanted. But the feeling of having to make HIM happy was so overwhelming that when it didn't work out I was so relieved. I have to remind myself of that feeling when I'm feeling down, and thinking he's still my answer to my happiness.
They're NOT, only we can make ourselves happy, then if someone comes along to share that happiness, that's when it's truly right.
PS.......don't you dare leave me out of these wedding plans, I've been a bridesmaid many, many times, and that's fine with me now. lol No matter what I'm wearing. I'll come naked...um well never mind.
