Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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I'm going. The kids are thrilled about this, a surprise vacatio and they get to miss a day of school. We always have fun as a family. Since our Ds don't know anything about Hs plans to leave/separate, I fear that this reinforcement of our family life will only make it more confusing for them.

I plan to act as if I am the best, most patient, charming fun-loving person on earth.

This morning I probably blew DBing once again. I snuggled up to H in bed and asked him: "Do you not want me to touch you at all?" To which he said "I didn't say that." To which I said: "I hate sleeping in the same bed and not touching. Can you just be my cuddly boy toy until I find a new boyfriend?" I know--it's bad DBing, it's pressure, but I just HATE lying there and not being able to touch at all--yet I don't want him to leave the bed either.