I find myself in the land between sad, relieved and anxious.
Time will help. I know you've hung in there a long time to keep your M and family together. We resist change, but sometimes it's a relief once it is finally rolling and we know what the factors are we have to deal with.
You know what else? it's okay for you to have all those feelings, to reach out for support, to be sad and scared and cry. Don't stuff those feelings, let them process.
Protect yourself, protect your kids.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.
