Still Confused - Just not as fresh

[Snow White]

By having no R talks? I don't believe so. Unless during your R talk last week, you told H that he had to pack up and leave. Is that what happened? Or did H say on his own that he was leaving?

I didn't tell him to leave but I did say something along the line after he said he would stop not contacting her that that means you have chosen her over our M? He said that is not what it means. I said that it what it means to me.
Then he decided that he would be moving out. Contacted OW that night to tell her that I was leaving him and that it had nothing to do with her.

Can you look past H, OW, the A, and tolerate it for the time being? Can you wait it out, let the A die on its own, while you focus on yourself and your lovely little girl?

I don't know what I can do, I really suck at this. Everytime I ignore it things seems that things are going so good that when I realize something (like phone calls, or interent contact) it is like a punch in the stomach and I go off like it is a new betrayal each time.

Do you want a D or do you want to save your M?

I want to save my marriage! BUT, I don't want to spend everyday for the rest of my life crying. I had to tell my boss yesterday that I would prefer not to go on the business trip in 3 weeks to Ottawa(our country's capital) because I did not think I could handle it mentally or emotionally and I did not know if H would be home or not so I didn;t want in the midst of everything to leave my daughter for 6 days.