Bedtime conversations with W are getting more relaxed and friendly.
Last night W and I were talking about D6 and the comments her school teachers have made about her being such a chatterbox in classes. W say that she remembers herself being exactly the same at that age. I told W that I was painfully shy as a kid, and that the shyness followed me right into my twenties. W says that I must have overcome that by the time I had met her. How was that I asked. W then recounted the story of how we first stayed together. We had been dating about 3 months and W was at my house and it was getting late so I told her she could stay overnight. W said no and made the excuses that she had no toothbrush or overnight bag so she couldn't stay. Ok then. The next time W was at my house I asked her to stay over, and before she could make her excuses I told her that I'd got her a toothbrush, dressing gown, slippers even fresh underwear, so there's no excuse "You're staying". We both laughed about that, but it gave me pointers of how I used to be with W.
Reconciling with W this time seems different to 2 � years ago after her first A. Things are going in the right direction now, but I'm almost too scared to accept them. When we were reconciling last time W still avoided contact with me at night time. In fact in that period between the 2 A's I think we only ML twice, but I must have begged a thousand times. The negative thought that comes into my head (cos I must process it) is that she never really let go of OM until now, so for 2 years we were just going through the motions of reconciling. (Sigh).
OK back to last night W says she really enjoyed the chat and even the fact that we could laugh about things together. Although we haven't ML W seeks me out to come close to her and keep her warm before she sleeps, so that's nice and positive, and a lot better than the way things were just a few weeks ago.
