H is having affair after all

[Evie]

Holly - my friends call me Evie, it sounds right and looks right. I'm going to change my profile.

Thank you for your kind words.

Whilst i'm not happy about the trip and my son been exposed to it (although he doesn't know), there isn't a lot i can do except as you say, hold my head high. I shall dress to the nines that day and go and wave my son off and I WILL hold my head high. I doubt it will make them uncomfortable but i refuse to hide away.

I believe the affair is still going on and i'm upset that my H is showing no regard/compassion/allowaneces for my feelings, right now.

Holly - i have some questions for you, i hope your don't mind?

In all the time you were seperated (18 mths?)did you believe there was hope for your M?
Were you appalled with yourself for still wanting to take him back?
How did you move on in that 18 months?

Sorry for the questions, i feel I should be walking away, however, i feel i have no pride to want him back still. Even though i'm still angry, I would still have him back.

He has said he doesn't love me and even last night on the phone to S1 he said he wasn't coming back and yet I can't let go.