Is that the best response you've got to all that has been posted to you today, Frank_D?
No, I have actually been thinking about this a lot today. Faith is something I need more of in my life and the love and support I"m getting from my friends here has been great for me.
I really don't see my marriage being saved because it would take a huge epiphany for my W to see how mush she has to fix in her own soul. I just don't see it. She might 'come back' if she has a hard time living without me, but that's not enough to base a marriage on.
But, I CAN be saved. And when I'm saved my kids will be happier. Having faith that I can be happy, and that God or faith in the love of Christ will help me get to that place. And I do believe that I can be happy again, and that in so many ways the darkness my W has brought into the family needs to be pushed away.
Luckily my kids don't think much of that stuff, and they seem to know to come to me when they need 'real' support.
So, I think you're right Amy. I want to have faith and I will have faith. You and others wouldn't be here if I wasn't worth saving. Thank you all for that love.
One of my friends from the board said this: "What your W is not understanding is that she is throwing away the ONE source of unconditional love she has truly ever had."
