Oh, Jethro...I'm so sorry you're having a hard time. You and SBH seem to be in similar places. Though I hope he isn't suspicious of me. I'm not doing anything except taking care of our kids and sleeping lately (by myself!!!).
One time SBH came home early from work but I was expecting the guy for the propane tank and I called the propane tank guy's name (DO NOT KNOW WHY - NEVER a good idea!!!). John said something like, "are you sleeping with [whateverhisnamewas]?" - this was when S3.5 was a baby, and I said, "Yeah - I tell him I'm going to sleep - you watch the baby for me!!!" THat was pre-A, of course. I can't really joke about that stuff anymore...
Anyway, Your positive stuff is really good - such a contrast between what you compalain about in her verbal communications, as you pointed out. Interesting, but I know it doesn't necessarily mean you can trust her, or necessarily improve your attitude...
Are you guys in C? Any good books on "marrying your 1st love?" or something like that? It's got to be a common difficulty, that wondering if there might be more. I still don't believe there is, but some people come to different conclusions...
Keep up the 3 things - GOOD JOB!!!!!!!!!
If there was a gold star graemlin, I'd give you one!
