This weekend was pretty good. H and I went out on Friday night and I actually ended up staying the night at his place. We had a good time and even sang karaoke...which was interesting. I am horrible, but it was fun. Oh yeah, Friday night we saw one of my friends from high school. He really couldn't hide the shock on his face that H and I were together...small town. There is no telling what he has heard about us. My H even mentioned that he seemed shocked and then asked if it bothered me that people knew. I told him that it did a little bit, but there was nothing I could do about it...so no reason to dwell on it.

We went out again Saturday night. Although I kind of wished that I had done my own thing. I don't need to get back in the habit of doing things only with him.

I also feel myself kind of taking a dip. I want so much more from him. I feel myself resenting him a bit because I am giving so much and trying so hard...and he isn't.

Another reason I am resenting him is because he is living alone...while I am living with my mother and all my stuff is crammed in one room. I have no privacy and I can't even find my things because I have no room to unpack. I can't afford to live somewhere else because I am paying the full mortgage payment and bills on our house in TX. I am also helping him with his rent and car payment...which I told him I would do. I don't mind helping him, it just isn't fair that he gets to live alone. Ok, that is my whining for the day.

Oh yeah, I fell at work today. I work in a plant and the part I was in was really oily so everything was slick. I was coming down some stairs and slipped and fell right on my butt. All the stairs were slippery so I just slid all the way down. It HURT. It even hurts to sit down. Maybe I should get one of those donut things to sit on. ...Ok, NOW I am done whining.

Kris