Sounds like you're doing pretty well (other than not feeling well). You've got some good stuff going on and you're really stepping up to the plate.
It's hard to know how much the kids miss their Dad. It's even harder that you have to see the looks and hear it the most. There are looks on faces that I have to live with, not H and it makes me sick sometimes. This is teaching me alot about who I am and just what I'm made of.