Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

[newnamenewlife]

H is back from his vacation and I'm feeling awful again. He came in last night, got into bed without giving me a kiss hello. I had such a strong urge to cuddle up next to him.

Now he is planning to take the Ds skiing this weekend and half-heartedly invited me along, saying the girls would want me to come. That made me feel like crying, since he doesn't want me to. His sister and her new bf are coming too. I'm torn. I want to go because I love to ski and want to be with Ds, but I associate skiing so strongly with the good times in my R with H and I'm miserable at the thought of being in that environment with him right now. Plus, my SIL and her new bf will be more reminders of new love and all that.