Tough weekend.

Her friend 'P' who is the 40 ish never had a relationship best friend who she 'cuddles' with when she visits was here friday / saturday. I'm very uncomfortable when she's around and I'm sure W picks up on that.

She and I had to go to a funeral on Saturday. During the service her phone 'beeped' the text message sound. She had to go to the bathroom soon after that. Nothing like a blatant reminder that she is still in EA with married guy who 'loves his wife'.

W was very difficult to be around Saturday and Sunday. On Sunday she cleaned the house, then decided to move herself into the guest bedroom after 'P' went home. She said she had to 'move forward'. So, the master bedroom is mine again. Just like last time.

I guess I let the reminder of the EA and the moving get to me so I had to leave for a few hours.

I ended up talking with her Dad and Stepmom for a while. They are aware of the situation and once again are not supportive of her choices. They think she needs medication or at the least some real counseling. Their advice to me is let her go and move on because she has been a quitter so many times before and they say "how do you know she won't do it again and again.?" They say that I am as much family as she is, and they respect what I have done and that I have admitted my role in all this and have been capable and willing to get help.

Anyway, they are pretty sad and she doesn't talk to them about this so they know there is nothing they can do until she does, and even then it won't matter.

As her dad said, even if half of what you've told us is true, she's still wrong for leaving you and breaking up the family.

And, he said I deserve to be happy and for whatever reasons I'm not going to get that with his daughter. Her mom was apparently the same way and he told me some stories that were similar to W's actions.

Anyway, they have always liked me and they just want me to be happy, and they truly believe she won't be happy till she deals with her demons and she doesn't appear to be willing to do that.

I'm tired. and sad.


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