Tied to the Whipping Post

[Punktmann]

Mishka, thanks for sticking with me. I know that I've been pretty distant on the boards.

I do think that this is all part of His plan.

I really want to listen to God's plan for my life. Right now, I am hearing "no anger, forgiveness."

Also, during our discussions of how things will go over the next few weeks, I found myself offering to adjust things, (loan her money,) in her favor to make things easier on her.

I never planned that, but it came out of my mouth like I was breathing.

I am certainly not regretting that, I really hope that it DOES make things easier on her.

It's kind of sad, the MLC has such a hold on her that she has approached me asking me all kinds of financial questions, and I find myself in the position that I am advising her on the best way to leave me.

Wow, I suppose that I'll submit my photo to Wickipedia for their entry on "Irony" next week.



I had a blast with my kids today, there is a place in our backyard where I have a (yearly,) ditch dug to drain the water from the neighboring cornfields.

It turned into an icy sort of "Luge" track. We spent about an hour sliding down that, and me shoving them through it.

Man, this is going to suck when they are gone.

Take the best of care Mishka,

don't you think it has made you grow as well? Maybe this is God's plan for your life. You needed to grow and your W's crisis was the catalyst for that.

Ummm, yeah, I do. I've grown a lot in certain areas. Most noticeably to me, my ability to control my anger at what is happening, and what she throws at me.

Yesterday, we were discussing the finances of this, and she got really nasty. Previously, I would have responded in kind, but instead, I said "You're being nasty makes me want to not discuss this with you anymore."

I don't like feeling self-righteous, (which is what she calls me when I walk away,) but I like how it feels when I bow out of a crappy sitch with her.

I'll continue to pray for all of you.

Thank you, That's more important than many think.




Best,

Punkt.