Help Me Act AS IF, Part 3

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H comes back late tonight after being away for 5 days--during which I DB'd pretty well. Didn't call him at all, was polite but brief when he asked to speak to me. GAL'd with my Ds.

I'm not sure what he is thinking as far as moving out. He needs to have an apt lined up that is nearby and has a room for the kids, and that seems like a financial impossibility right now.

All weekend, I kept looking at my Ds and pictured breaking the news to them and I simply cannot see myself participating in that. I don't want them to think that I am onboard with separating. My D11, especially, gets angry at me just for breathing lately, plus she is going to a new school in September, which will be a big change for her. She also struggles with anxiety and depression. She really does NOT need any other major change in her life right now.

I will sit there with H if he wants to tell them, but I've decided that he will have to take responsibility for making the decision to move elsewhere. I don't plan to speak badly about him to them, but I simply do not approve of what he is doing and I think my kids are going to know the real deal anyway. I know I should rise above it all and make it seem like a mutual decision, but I simply can't do that. I don't even think I could pull it off. My C thinks it's OK for me to ask H to take that responsibility.